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BRACE FOR IMPACT

Gabe Montesanti

A Memoir

An exciting memoir, a crash course in the brutal, big-hearted world of roller derby, told through the unforgettable story of one young woman's fight to find her place in the world. Set in St. Louis, Gabe's story upends the traditional narrative of lgbtq+ people finding community only in liberal cities, and gives voice to the experience of making a home and creating chosen family.
Gabe Montesanti grew up queer in a working-class, conservative Catholic family in the Midwest, where she was taught to prioritize strength and impenetrability over vulnerability and honesty. In this emotionally, physically, and spiritually abusive environment, she developed a severe eating disorder, never learned to trust herself, and lived in constant fear. As she enters graduate school, she vows to put the trauma of her past behind her and to learn to fully inhabit her body. So, she decides to join Arch Rival Roller Derby in St. Louis, one of the top-rated teams in the country, and instantly falls in love with the roughness, intensity, and roller derby's open embrace of people who are literally and figuratively scarred. Gabe soon finds community, safety, and a sense of belonging, reveling in the queer-friendly environment, the tattoos, glitter, and campiness. She chooses the derby name Joan of Spark, modeling herself after the fierce and independent Joan of Arc, to signify all the ways she's left behind the baggage of her childhood.

But when Gabe suffers a catastrophic injury, her unresolved trauma catches up to her. In the aftermath of her accident, it becomes impossible for her to ignore how the physicality of roller derby mirrors the emotional violence of her upbringing. Gabe's arduous physical recovery is matched only by the painful process of beginning to heal her emotional wounds. Forced to reckon with her past, she must decide if she can try to channel her Joan of Spark away from roller derby and shift herself into a bolder, future, one more true to herself.

Gabe earned her BA in mathematics and studio art from Kalamazoo College and her MFA in creative nonfiction from Washington University in St. Louis. She serves as a mentor for the PEN Prison Writing Program, teaches creating writing at St. Louis Community College and the Loft Literary Center, and has had work published in Belt Magazine, Brevity, The Offing, and Boulevard Magazine. Her piece "The Worldwide Roller Derby Convention" was recognized as a notable essay in The Best American Essays. And indeed, she still skates for Arch Rival Roller Derby in St. Louis under the name of Joan of Spark!
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Published 2022-05-24 by Dial Press

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Gabe is a shining example of what it looks like to chase a dream. Between her willingness to confront her past, her unflinching excavation of her relationship with her body, and persistent quest for peace, Gabe's story of resilience and courage was deeply inspiring to me.

This propulsive debut from Montesanti explores queer belonging, body image, and emotional healing through the exhilarating lens of roller derby... Her bracing story veers from fraught to exuberantly cathartic... This spirited coming-of-age account brims with joy and resilience.

An uplifting memoir of slow work towards self-acceptance, and of the healing and support Montesanti found in roller derby.Montesanti effectively mixes difficult self-reflection with lighter tales (derby recruitment, team practices, even a climactic trip to RollerCon).

Brace for Impact helped me know myself better. The way Gabe Montesanti writes about her instinct to be gentle towards others yet strict, regimented, and disciplined towards herself is beautiful, bold and utterly relatable to me as a queer person, a person who has struggled to love, accept and value my body, and a one-time serious athlete from the Midwest. Most of all, Gabe's story made me want to join roller derby, know the people she skates with, and push myself to try new things. Reading this book is the next best thing to being out on the track.

In Brace for Impact, Gabe Montesanti's rich and powerful descriptions of the world of roller derby and the incredible community she found there offer meaningful insight into what it's like to be an LGBTQ+ person in the Midwest, and reveal how empowering and liberating sports can be, especially when it comes to our relationship with our bodies. Brace for Impact bursts with honest, vulnerable, life-saving storytelling. Simply put, this book helped me grow and finally understand that I belong to myself. I loved it!

Set in the fascinating world of roller derby, Brace for Impact is a riveting story of redemption, adventure, and the pursuit of joy. With each blow Montesanti takes, both on and off the rink, her traumatic past threatens her ability to build a meaningful future - but no matter how hard the fall, Montesanti finds a way to rise again and again. I finished Brace for Impact believing true change is possible, within ourselves, our families, and the world around us. A stunning memoir.

Brace for Impact is a universal story of healing and triumph, made all the more beautiful, wild, and free because of Gabe Montesanti's fierce love for roller derby and her team, who become her family. Our world urgently needs brave, bold voices like Gabe's, who are figuring out how to feel, find acceptance, and become who they were to meant to be.